Day 6, the first trial and success

I had a bad feeling when I woke up. I was in a bad mood, angry at FW. I hoped the commute would make it wear off, but it didn't. I kept relapsing into being upset throughout the day, and hoping that things would not work out for her. Each time, I would try to be rational and let it go, understanding that if she were unhappy I would be at least equally so. Most of the commute home it persisted, then I just started channeling the bad energy into pedaling the bike. It worked. Surprised me how well it worked. The rest of the commute was a breeze.

FW stopped by to pick some stuff up just after I got home. I was in a great mood, so it took a lot of the tension away. I asked her if she is serious about wanting to be friends, and she said yes. I told her I would definitely like that. She said she would, too. Then she started talking about wanting to set me up with some acquaintances of hers. Umm, too soon for me, I think. She had mentioned it before, and I declined before. Just weird. Maybe she is in love, and thinks everybody else should be. Maybe she feels guilty. Maybe she has really gone off the deep end.

It was good to see her. Especially when I was in such a good mood. I'm proud of myself for getting through today.