Day 3, 37 to go.

My exact status as of right now is between having retained a mediator and having petitions and draft judgment paperwork filed. Friday was the day we retained the mediator. Day 1 in my numbering, because that's the day I think FW felt free to completely go over to her new lover.

FW was not hesitant at all. She was in a hurry to get the process done. She was very cold and distant. I really do hope she's happy. At this point, I just need clarity on my finances, so that I too can move on. She had been very insistent about wanting to remain friends and I felt the same way. She texted me as recently as last Sunday to make sure that I knew she would always be there for me if I needed to talk. She has not responded to the one text and voicemail I left with her since then. That's a shame.

One thing that I do know is that God is there for me, and things will be OK. I have felt in my recent conversations that God wants me to be the best person that I can be, and be kind and fair to her as she goes away and beyond. I have also felt that I was going to be tested. I will post more about my spiritual journey in the future.