The in-between

I did pretty well for the rest of the 40 days since the last post...

Day 40 passed almost without incident on November 24. Almost. At about 11:40PM, my phone rang. I was already asleep and didn't get it in time. I saw the number, and didn't immediately recognize it in my haze. I hit send to dial it back, and just as it dialed, I realized whose number it is. FW's boyfriend's number! I let it ring, and who picks up, but FW. Somewhat embarrassed, she tells me that she mis-dialed my number while trying to call her phone (our numbers differ by the trailing digit) because she got a new ring tone. She apologizes, then I say OK and we say goodnight. UNBELIEVABLE. She knew nothing of my 40 day campaign (I think), so this was just kind of serendipity. There is an interesting symmetry in that I found out about the nature of this relationship when she accidentally sent me a text that as meant for him. The message I got then as I did now was God telling me that I can let her go.

There were three more signs that evening. The first was that I checked my email since I was awake and found that I had received a response to an online dating email that I had sent. I take that as another sign from God to move on... The second was that a little before 1AM FW's boyfriend sent an apologetic text message, obviously very embarrassed and a bit ashamed, assuring me that this would not happen again (as if this was within his control...). I don't know what that means, but it is interesting. The final sign was that overnight my aunt in Portugal, who happens to be a nun, sent me a nice, unsolicited email, wishing me a blessing. Amazing. I perhaps read too much into these events, but I have experienced enough other unusual phenomena that I cannot discount the evidence of God.

The next morning, I sent FW's boyfriend a return text telling him no worries, and that I completely understand.

So I am now moving on with my life, trying my hand at the online dating thing (yuck) with a don't touch-me-with-a-10-foot-pole relationship status that reads "currently separated," until the divorce becomes final, at which point I will gladly change it to "divorced" and keep trying.

So, I will post a little about what it means to try and date for me, and I will try to keep things focused on myself and not expose details of anybody else's life. That is, unless I run across something epically bad or astoundingly wonderful. Then I will be as discrete as I can.

I found some interesting dating blogs, and I will share links to them in another post.